The world works in mysterious ways...

Through life there are a course of events that lead to the situation you are in now or will be in sometime down the line. When you start to look back it doesn't make sense, but maybe you figure it out as you move along. You can't change what has happened, but you can always change what will happen. So I leave you with some music that helps me think. :P


If I could see you again by Yiruma

Is it so wrong....?

Is it so wrong to want to know you'll have something when your done with something else?

If I know I can't keep the same friends I have now, I would like to at least know I can be set with the new ones before the old ones fade away. Is that so bad?

If I know I am going to separate from a significant other, I would like to have some options. Is that so wrong.

Loneliness is something I know I don't like to deal with. It's not a happy time in anyone's life when you know there's no one there filling up a whole in your life. Which is why I am the way I am. I don't like that empty feeling. Change is hard for me, but is attainable. It's just a little complicated.

Good Job Fucko

Good Job having the balls to say that WE'RE fake to someone else when you alone say that you're pretending to be friends with us. Wait isn't that the other way around?

I'm sorry if for one second you didn't have all the "attention".
I'm sorry we weren't trying to take YOU out of the spotlight.
I'm sorry for being there for you when you needed someone to talk to.
I'm sorry for loving what I do and wanting to share what I know.
I'm sorry you had to listen to what I consider at least some talent because you miss have none.
I'm sorry for sticking up for you when I really shouldn't have. My wasted energy was for nothing.
I'm sorry I didn't stay with my first assumption about you.

Go ahead try and talk to us. We won't respond. Be "fake" with someone else. We don't put up with that crap.

Feeling Guilty? Being too nice?

Yes. I'm sick of having to hear everyone's woes. Stop thinking because I'm a kind person and the only one who will listen that you can turn it around and make me not only feel pity, but feel guilty for you. Whether it's because you don't have something that I happen to have or complaining about your love life. I honestly don't need you to go on and on with not stopping just because I say I'll listen. It doesn't mean that I want to hear your life story. Honestly I will listen to most of it, but sometimes you have to realize and learn when it's time to stop because I won't say no. I'm too nice. Not only is it usually close friends, but it also includes family. Maybe I need to learn when to say no. It's one of my faults. Being too nice doesn't get you anywhere.

Why is it that you do a good thing and get shitted on afterwords?
Why if you were to do everything in your power to make someone happy and they didn't acknowledge it at all?

These are the things I think about. You could do everything for your best friend and still not get anything out of it. But because you're too nice you won't think badly about it until much later. You would ignore it. Don't be like me. Don't ignore it.

Good things could happen to good people?

Why is that when you do a good deed most of the time you would rarely see something good happen to you in return? I'm a big believer in karma, but lately it hasn't been working out. Actually it never works out. Why do good things happen to bad people? Why do bad things happen to good people? Because it just does. Well sorry that answer just isn't good enough for me.

Good people die everyday while the bad people are still walking on this earth.
Good people get shit on when the bad people get all the glory.
Good people get the sloppy seconds when the bad people get first dibs.
Good people get sick when the bad people stay healthy.

Now what if this good person was to turn it all around and do everything she could to be a bad person to obtain all these benefits? Well it wouldn't do any good. Because no matter what happens that person will always be a good person at heart. Now yes you'd think it only gets worse before it gets better, but for how long before it gets worse again?

I'm fed up with this definition of consequences and rewards. None of it makes sense nor is it fair.

Those are the moments....

Awkward situations are the best. No matter what the situation is you can make the best out of it. It gives you a story to tell later on and will most likely always teach you something whether it's about people in general or generally what not to do or what to do.

-If your going out to dinner with your friends and there is one person there that you hoped wouldn't go, but did anyway, it doesn't matter because something good can come from it especially if there is one friend who shares that same opinion as you do.

Girls are one fucked up species.

So what I have to say is this....Girls are a fucked up species, but that doesn't give them the right to do things like this. It also isn't and will never be an excuse to do stupid shit.


-Never and I mean never pass a message on to your soon to be ex-boyfriend through your friend. This only proves what a horrible young lady you are or how you are too immature to speak for yourself.

Never and I mean never say one thing and contradict it with this one action.

-"I love you" is a strong phrase and shouldn't be said unless the meaning is understood. When you say it, mean it. Don't say it like you say the word "the". It shouldn't be a common phrase unless it's the truth. So think again when you decide to say it. Is it too early? Do you really feel that way or do you just feel like saying it? All I'm saying is try to understand that three word combination.

-One piece of advice. If you decide one relationship isn't the one for you, look again. You might be throwing something away that later you will realize and say "I made a mistake and I miss you." By then you look stupid.


I say this with all the concern for other girls who might think that this was okay or do not know of this silly thing that happens all the time.